so there are a million different emotions going on inside of tiny little me right now.
i moved back to school today..
it's going to be a long hard year with the two that are connected at the hip.
i am their roommate too, and they can't stand to share things with me.
it is like they are a force acting against anna and i.
la la la whatever.
i went to the stand around with them...and they just talked to their friends and kind of left me in the dust.
so..
naturally i got annoyed and met up with alec.
he took me back to his place and made me a drink..
then we started watching a movie...
then he kissed me..
and i kissed him back...
and yadda yadda.
we almost went all the way but i said no.
i honestly don't think i could handle it.
it would make things way more complicated than they need to be.
hell, they are getting complicated anyways.
so yeah...
that happened and it was fun.
and i'm sure it will happen again..
and i'm sure i'll get freaked out and run away.
i just can't handle having feelings for him.
i don't want to.
and i'm starting to get them..
and it's freaking me out.
i want to be okay with it..
i want to like him as much as he likes me.
but no.
i can't..
there is a wall built up there.
i need time.
time to get to know him.
time to get to know us together.
time for me to make up my mind.
blahhh...
i have to work in the morning.