so here i am.

loving life.

i got to see my whole family this weekend.

well maybe not the whole shabang,

but i got to see the people that matter.

the ones i miss the most.

and the ones i don't...

that only show up for big events.

who never seem to care unless something happens.

but that's whatever.

i got to see my aunt jayjay and my cousins ana and alex.

and what a wonder that was!

i hate that they moved to arizona,

i grew up with them.

i miss them.

and i really look up to my aunt.

i feel like her and i are alike in more ways than one.

but you would never know,

because we are never together.

i wanted to hang out with them more.

yes i saw my long lost family.

but i missed the damned sweet corn festival for them.

the first year i'm legal to drink!

not that i didn't last year ;)

but it would have been a blast...

my mom went and apparently she had THE BEST SWEETCORN EVER!!!

she met up with some guy she was in love with in high school.

and banged him.

thus is my life.

i wouldn't have run into any body i was in love with...

and i wouldn't have banged them.

although, last time i went out in adel i made out with jonas.

awkward.

you know, i really had a great weekend with family.

i wouldn't have gotten that if i went to sweetcorn.

i love them.

all of them.

as neurotic and insane as they are.

they are who i am.

they make me.

and i love every damn second of it.

there is never a dull moment.

there are stories and memories...

apparently i fed alex paint?

it is just the greatest feeling in the world to be around them.

and i am so sad that i can't be around them more.

i'm sad we don't live close.

i'm sad they moved away.

but what can you do?

it's not like i have the money to travel to phoenix!

thank god for facebook, huh?

well i'm sleepy...

i just wanted to say that i love my family.

and they will always be a part of me.

and no matter what,

i'll never be ashamed of that.

xoxo.