i am so lonely. i used to think that it was whatever, i would be ok on my own for the rest of my life. but deep down, it is really starting to bother me that i can't find love. that i can't find a partner. i don't like it one bit. now, i'm not trying to be needing to seem like a need a guy to survive. but, i want somebody to love me. and idk why that is so much to ask for. and i know i just have to wait for the right time and the right person and everything will fall into place, blah blah blah. but i feel as though i've been through enough shit and done enough waiting that maybe...there is hope for me. but then, there never is. it is honestly starting to wear on me. i see all my friends happy to be with somebody, and everybody i graduated with is getting married or engaged or happily with somebody. i just don't understand, is that not in store for me? maybe i just expect too much. that's probably it. idk, i'm tired of being alone. and i know i'm not completely alone,i've got my friends and they are great. seriously, i couldn't ask for better friends and i am so glad i have them. but there is still that space in my heart that wants something more. i'm too impatient for this waiting game...

why won't love just happen?