“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again."

“When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not yet ready. The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny.”


“Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.”
― Maya Angelou


“Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them; that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.”
― Lao Tzu


“Some changes look negative on the surface but you will soon realize that space is being created in your life for something new to emerge.”
― Eckhart Tolle


“Things changed, people changed, and the world went rolling along right outside the window.”
― Nicholas Sparks, Message in a Bottle


“I have accepted fear as part of life – specifically the fear of change... I have gone ahead despite the pounding in the heart that says: turn back....”
― Erica Jong

“Right now I want a word that describes the feeling that you get--a cold sick feeling, deep down inside--when you know something is happening that will change you, and you don't want it to, but you can't stop it. And you know, for the first time, for the very first time, that there will now be a before and an after, a was and a will be. And that you will never again quite be the same person you were.”

“Just because I liked something at one point in time doesn’t mean I’ll always like it, or that I have to go on liking it at all points in time as an unthinking act of loyalty to who I am as a person, based solely on who I was as a person. To be loyal to myself is to allow myself to grow and change, and challenge who I am and what I think. The only thing I am for sure is unsure, and this means I’m growing, and not stagnant or shrinking. 
”

“We can't be afraid of change. You may feel very secure in the pond that you are in, but if you never venture out of it, you will never know that there is such a thing as an ocean, a sea. Holding onto something that is good for you now, may be the very reason why you don't have something better.”

I'm at the point again.
Where I have far too much going on in my head.
Any normal person would go insane.
Clearly I'm not any normal person.
I keep everything so fucking bottled up.
Why?
Its messed up and I hate myself for jt all the time.
If i could just fucking talk about things life would be a hell of a lot easier.
My mom moved.. That's been awful.
I hate it.
I'm doing fine with everything else but ive cried like 3 times in the past month.
Weird.
I know.
And now that I'm upset, i can't fucking cry.
What kind of fuckery is this.
I feel as though if trained myself to be so rock hard that i can't even control it anymore.
It just happens whenever it wants to.
Ugh.
Alec and i are no longer talking.
I'm glad.
I wish i wasnt because i feel like a terrible person for being happy about this.
But he was so damned negative ad full of drama.
I don't do the drame thing.
Ever.
And I'm sure as shit not about to statt now.
One more thing i need to get off my chest.
I slept with jessies boyfriends brother.
We'd cuddled before that but I'm so physically attracted to him its ridiculous.
I crave to be with him and in his arms.
Ive never felt like this about a guy ive had casual sex with...
And I'm not sure i like it.
I don't want feelings to get involved but i think its happening.
And to be honest...
That scares the shit outta me.

<3