i am petrified of growing up.

it is not something i want to do...

i don't want to graduate.

i don't want a big girl job.

i want to stay in my comfortable little on-campus apartment with my annoying roommates.

forever.

yeah..i'm excited to move in with jessie.

i love her and i know we'll have a great time.

but moving in with her means the end of an era.

the end of being a kid..

i'm supposed to be a grownup now aren't i?

fuck.

i'm scared.

i'm going to be all collegy with this psych degree..

i haven't even taken the GRE, and i'm supposed to go to graduate school next year?

yuckkkk.

also...that sweater in that picture up there, yeah i shrunk it.

i'm bummed.

but that obviously doesn't matter...

there are more pressing issues.

not only am i afraid to grow up.

i'm lonely, and kind of sad about that.

it's been almost a year since justin..

and i still can't stop thinking about him.

i need to get over it and get used to the fact that...

HE IS NEVER COMING BACK.

yeah, i'm okay on my own.

i'm happy.

i'm getting along just fine.

but i miss him.

and not only do i miss him..

i miss having someone.

i miss being in love.

having a companion.

i miss being not lonely.